TITLE: You're Alive AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net CLASSIFICATION: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst. CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance. RATING: PG DISTRIBUTION: OK to Gossamer, Ephemeral, After the Fact, MSR Fanfic Cheerleader Archive. SPOILERS: Redux II SETTING: Season Five. DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris Carter. FEEDBACK: Yes, please. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Thanks to Jen for beta reading this story for me. SUMMARY: Mulder reflects about Scully's remission from cancer. ------------------------------------------- You're Alive Written by: Erin M. Blair ------------------------------------------- Before Skinner led me away, I saw how pale your beautiful porcelain skin was. The only color you had was your red hair flowing down over the pillow. You were dying, Scully, and they wanted to take me away from you. You could have been dead, Scully. I would never have forgiven myself for not holding you in your last hours. I promised that we would always be together, no matter what happens. I'll never break my promise to you. No matter what. If you were dead, my heart would be broken into bits and pieces. No one would have picked up the pieces. I would have killed myself with my own gun. I couldn't fathom being without you. I don't want to try and find out. I'm thankful that I found your cure. I know we never knew what cured you. We have our different views on it, but I'm grateful to whoever or whatever power that made you well. You're alive, Scully; I'm alive, too. ~~ the end ~~ Author's Notes: I enjoyed writing "Praying for Health" so much that I wanted to write a follow up using Mulder's POV. I loved the episode, "Redux II," so much because I understood what Mulder and Scully went through. Cancer affects the whole family, not just the woman (or man) suffering from the disease. I wanted to try to convey the pain, the fear, and the hope Mulder had for Scully's remission. I hope that I succeeded. I would like to thank my readers for their feedback and for encouraging me over the years. Most of all, I would like to thank my beta reader, Jen, for helping me with this story. :) ~Erin M. Blair November 1, 2004