Title: Mulder's Prayer Author: Spookyteacher Rating: PG Category: V, A Subcategory: MSR Spoilers: US7 (Requiem, especially) Archive: Spooky Awards, Epehemeral are okay. I've already sent it to Gossamer via atxc. All other site managers who want to archive it-- please just e-mail where you have it. I want to visit your very tasteful sites! Summary: Mulder's thoughts as they flew back to D.C. from Oregon. Disclaimer: Mulder, Scully, the Lone Gunmen, Skinner, Krycek, and the Smoking Man, et al, are the creative property of Chris Carter, Ten Thirteen Productions, and Fox Television. You guys have written them so well I can't resist having a go at it myself. I really am a classroom teacher, which is synonymous with POOR. Hint, hint... Mulder's Prayer She's asleep. I love watching her sleep. I just wish she was in my arms, like last night. She slept so peacefully with my arms around her. And so did I. I'd told her it wasn't worth the personal loss. And it's not. We've lost so much. Now, there's only one thing left to lose. And I cannot lose her. There are so many stars and planets out there. I wonder which one they come from. Are they truly evil? Or is it just the men that are helping them? What are they doing with Billy and Teresa and Ray and the others? I know what they did to Scully. I can still see her with that baby. It seemed so perfect, but so sad. I wanted to laugh and to scream at the same time. She looks so peaceful sleeping. How can she stand it? How can she just accept that she will never have a baby? That we will never have a baby? I am so angry at them for taking it away from her. And from me. Because Scully is the only one I trust to be mother to my child. What I'd screw up, and that would be a lot, she'd fix. Her child would be a happy, beautiful, and well-behaved child. Our child. She looks so relaxed. I wish I could relax like that and sleep. My mind won't stop working now. I want her to have it all. I cannot rest until she has it all. But how can I give her a child? Oh, we're trying. But, they took it away from her and I cannot give it back. I want to so very badly. I'd give... I'd give anything to give that back to her. She looks so beautiful sleeping there. If I knew how to pray, I'd ask God to give this to her. But, I don't really know how to pray. I'll have to ask her to show me. Only it would upset her to know how much this bothers me. So, okay, I'll try. God... Dear God... God in heaven... Blessed God.... Holy God... I know you haven't heard much from me in awhile. Things got bad and... Well... it was hard for me to believe in anything. She believes in you. With all her heart and soul and mind, she believes in you. She does not deserve what has happened to her. She deserves to have as many children as she wants. She should have a happy life.... I'm afraid I've caused her this pain. So... please grant her peace. I ask you for a miracle. Let her have a baby. Just one would be wonderful. Take from me whatever you want. Just make her happy. I pray this... Dear God help... In your name... Oh God... Forever and Ever, Amen. Shhh... Don't wake up just yet, Scully. Shhh.... I love touching your hair. It's so soft. Just sleep a little longer. I want to watch you and you won't let me just watch you when you're awake. Sleep. And, if He heard me, maybe He'll help. I love you.